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I Beg Your Time

COVID-19 A PRAYER OF SOLIDARITY

For all who have contracted coronavirus, we pray for care and healing.

For those who are particularly vulnerable, we pray for safety and protection.

For all who experience fear or anxiety, we pray for peace of mind and spirit.

For affected families who are facing difficult decisions between food on table or public safety, we pray for policies that recognize their plight.

For those who do not have adequate health insurance, we pray that no family will face financial burdens alone.

For those who are afraid to access care due to immigration status, we pray for recognition of the God~given dignity of all.

For our brothers and sisters around the world, we pray for shared solidarity.

For public officials and decision ~ makers, we pray for wisdom and guidance.

Father, during this time, may your Church be a sign of hope, comfort and love to all. Grant peace. Grant comfort. Grant heali3. Be with us, Lord. Amen

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Longing

There are memories worth keeping;

But, there are memories you have to let go in order for you to love and live.

There are memories worth lingering with;

But, there are memories you have to let it pass by in order for you to breathe anew.

There are memories worth recapturing;

But, there are memories you have to accept it is past in order for you to see the present.

There are memories worth sharing;

But, there are memories the only worth by now, is lesson.

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Did You Rise?

The Resurrection: New Life for Christ, New Life for All

The Resurrection is, first of all, an event that concerns Jesus Christ. It is his personal triumph over death, and the vindication of the truth of his teaching. He had spoken about it before it happened. The fulfi3of the prophecy underscores the power of Christ and the truthfulness of his message. He experienced his physical resurrection in all its transforming vitality, just as he had experienced the destructive power of sin in his agony and death. This is what the Pascal Mystery is all about. The resurrection reveals this with a glorious clarity perceived through the eyes of faith.

But whatever happened to Christ has also a cosmic resonance. It influences and affects positively the whole universe, but especially mankind. At the Incarnation, the Son of God united himself in a permanent way to every human being with a solidarity that makes him share in all the miseries if every individual, (including the deadly consequences of sin), and makes every human being a sharer in Christ’s dignity, holiness and glory.

This is why Jesus’ coming out of the tomb alive, transformed, immortal, concerns us, too. It concerns all human beings. His resurrection is also mankind’s resurrection because it marks mankind’s liberation from the oppression of sin.

Christ’s shattering the shackles of death (manifested through the breaking of the seals of his grave) is like the cracking of the shell of a seed which allows the sprout to burst forth with all the freshneof the new life it carries. That sprout is Christ, but is also all mankind. It is also each one of us. On Easter morning a new world dawned, a new humanity rose from the slavery of sin and death, in Jesus, through him and with him. (Col. 2:12~13)

No human expression can exhaust the transforming greatness of this mystery. The Church has been proclaiming it during her 20 centuries of existence through her liturgy, her creeds, and her life. She will continue to do so u til the liberating power of the Resurrection will have reached its full manifestation in the Kingdom of heaven.

There are a billion and one reasons for celebrating, then, as we commemorate, re~love and rejoice in the Resurrection of Jesus. It is our resurrection, too. But we are challenged to prove it by living a new life. We have to get rid the “old yeast” of corruption and wickedness, and live a life characterized by sincerity and truth. (1Cor 5:7~8) we have to set our hearts “on what pertains to higher realms” (Col. 3:1) Then will our actions ring the jouous notes of the Easter alleluia, and we shall become a living “proof” of Christ’s Resurrection.

©EUCHALETTE (Liturgical Leaflet for an Active Participation in the Celebration of the Eucharist)

Easter Sunday, 12 April 2020

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Covid’s Clutches

Last Sunday, I wrote about how the ECQ enhanced our identity during this season of Holy Week as we celebrate the Palm Sunday and the (remaining days of) Enhanced Community Quarantine and how the hymn of festivity and excitement envelop from town to city. I believe the lifting of the ECQ signals victory over this pandemic issue.

But,

The streaks of April 14, was covered by the gloom of night as the ECQ extended to the 30th of this month.

Suddenly, mixed emotions rushed forth. I couldn’t believe. Although, I have been reading news of the possibility of extension because of the increase of numbers of contamination, still, I’m shocked, though, I am deeply grateful, too. Such an irony of two opposing emotions.

The extension of the ECQ only means that the battle is still way ahead. And staying at home means exhausting all possible means to be healthy so as not to compromise our health and the safety of our frontliners– not only the medical staff but the staff in the grocery mall, market, transportation, etc – because for some of us, we need to go out to buy some basic needs here and there. And for some reasons, there are just areas where the 1 meter distancing rule is so difficult to remember, I wonder why.

It may appear that Hope becomes bleak as it unveils the depth of covid’s clutches to my country, to your country, and to the whole world.

But,

Today, Holy Wednesday, I would like to share with you the reflection of Pope Francis from Lumen Fidei which says, “Faith is not a light which scatters all our darkness, but a lamp which guides our steps in the night and suffices for the journey. To those who suffer, God does not provide arguments which explain everything; rather, his response is that of an accompanying presence, a history of goodness which touches every story of suffering and opens up a ray of light. ”

I have had experiences of pain, of suffering and everytime I am in this moment, I would always ask the Lord,” why, O LORD? ” and I hear no replies. Surely, you, too, have great stories to tell about your journey of pains, trials, struggles, sufferings. Yet, you and I knew that neither you nor me receives the reply. However, we, too, can testify that He never, not once, left us alone in the journey. His accompanying presence was there, which enables us to profess our Faith in Him, that He was there all along.

I hope, I share the same Hope with you. Let us not be afraid nor be worried of what is going on around us, remember, God sends the traveling Ishmaelites to save Joseph from the clutches of anger and envy of his brothers, though, was sold, but he end up the great Governor of Egypt and eventually, saved his Father and Brothers from famine and death.

The Lord is at work in this covid times. In due time, his accompanying presence will be revealed. And all shall be well.

Let us continue to HOPE. Let us be hope to the people near and even far from us.

Tomorrow, we shall begin the Easter Triduum, where we make present the event 2000 years ago by our unique celebration of the Last Supper of Jesus on Holy Thursday, the Passion and Death of Jesus on Good Friday, the Mourning and the Death He must undergo on Holy Saturday and the HOPE of the Resurrection of Jesus on Sunday Morning all in our homes and before a TV or Laptop screen.

My dear friends, even Jesus has to undergo all these, even He shouted ” Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani? “ so must we. Let us enter into the excruciating pain of a loss of a loved one because of covid, the fear that this pandemic virus it brings, the anxiety of when will this end, yet let us not be defeated, for in the end, Someone conquered sin and death for us.

WILL HE NOT DO SAME THIS TIME FOR US?

Thanks for reading.

Stay safe everyone.

You are all in my prayers.

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Covid’s Clutches

Last Sunday, I wrote about how the ECQ enhanced our identity during this season of Holy Week as we celebrate the Palm Sunday and the (remaining days of) Enhanced Community Quarantine and how the hymn of festivity and excitement envelop from town to city. I believe the lifting of the ECQ signals victory over this pandemic issue.

But,

The streaks of April 14, was covered by the gloom of night as the ECQ extended to the 30th of this month.

Suddenly, mixed emotions rushed forth. I couldn’t believe. Although, I have been reading news of the possibility of extension because of the increase of numbers of contamination, still, I’m shocked, though, I am deeply grateful, too. Such an irony of two opposing emotions.

The extension of the ECQ only means that the battle is still way ahead. And staying at home means exhausting all possible means to be healthy so as not to compromise our health and the safety of our frontliners– not only the medical staff but the staff in the grocery mall, market, transportation, etc – because for some of us, we need to go out to buy some basic needs here and there. And for some reasons, there are just areas where the 1 meter distancing rule is so difficult to remember, I wonder why.

It may appear that Hope becomes bleak as it unveils the depth of covid’s clutches to my country, to your country, and to the whole world.

But,

Today, Holy Wednesday, I would like to share with you the reflection of Pope Francis from Lumen Fidei which says, “Faith is not a light which scatters all our darkness, but a lamp which guides our steps in the night and suffices for the journey. To those who suffer, God does not provide arguments which explain everything; rather, his response is that of an accompanying presence, a history of goodness which touches every story of suffering and opens up a ray of light. ”

I have had experiences of pain, of suffering and everytime I am in this moment, I would always ask the Lord,” why, O LORD? ” and I hear no replies. Surely, you, too, have great stories to tell about your journey of pains, trials, struggles, sufferings. Yet, you and I knew that neither you nor me receives the reply. However, we, too, can testify that He never, not once, left us alone in the journey. His accompanying presence was there, which enables us to profess our Faith in Him, that He was there all along.

I hope, I share the same Hope with you. Let us not be afraid nor be worried of what is going on around us, remember, God sends the traveling Ishmaelites to save Joseph from the clutches of anger and envy of his brothers, though, was sold, but he end up the great Governor of Egypt and eventually, saved his Father and Brothers from famine and death.

The Lord is at work in this covid times. In due time, his accompanying presence will be revealed. And all shall be well.

Let us continue to HOPE. Let us be hope to the people near and even far from us.

Tomorrow, we shall begin the Easter Triduum, where we make present the event 2000 years ago by our unique celebration of the Last Supper of Jesus on Holy Thursday, the Passion and Death of Jesus on Good Friday, the Mourning and the Death He must undergo on Holy Saturday and the HOPE of the Resurrection of Jesus on Sunday Morning all in our homes and before a TV or Laptop screen.

My dear friends, even Jesus has to undergo all these, even He shouted ” Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani? “ so must we. Let us enter into the excruciating pain of a loss of a loved one because of covid, the fear that this pandemic virus it brings, the anxiety of when will this end, yet let us not be defeated, for in the end, Someone conquered sin and death for us.

WILL HE NOT DO SAME THIS TIME FOR US?

Thanks for reading.

Stay safe everyone.

You are all in my prayers.

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PALM Sunday Meets Covid~19

What is the good thing about Palm Sunday and Enhanced Community Quarantine?

This is the 3rd week of the 4 weeks home quarantine, and I bet, everyone looks forward on the last dayyy! I maybe wrong but I am confidently sure that 90 percent would agree with me!

There is a thought that made me wonder if, they [the everyone] too, shares this “idea” that after the enhanced community quarantine on April 14, all shall be wellll! It seems to me that there is a “sense of festivity and excitement.” It’s as if, there’s a hymn of victory traveling across town from town, city from city, unsung hymn yet loud enough to be heard.

Of course, I am deeply praying that we will win this covid battle. And as my country would say it” We Heal As One. We Rise As One. ” This alone would tell you how positive we are over this pandemic virus that has cost lives and disrupted our life. Has caused fear, anxiety, insecurity and death. Yet, despite these realities and eventualities, we do not lose hope. We continue to believe and to trust. We storm heaven as One.

Today, marks the beginning of a week~long celebration of the Passion, Death, Resurrection and Ascension of Jesus.

The Church is making a history (I have not heard nor read from history, I stand corrected, if there is) of celebrating the Holy Week is silence and empty churches. Yet, it is in this silence and empty churches that brings her back to the First Community of Christians.

How do the early believers of Christ celebrate the Memorial of His Words and Actions?

They gather, as a small unit of community. Breaking bread and listening to the Words of the Lord being retold.

Nay! Are we not on the “same” feel?

We gather, as family. We pray, we listen to the Word of God and we participate in the celebration of the Mass, virtually, yet, personally, there was never a slight feel that it was way different from the masses I have participated on. Why? Because it’s the heart that really matters and nothing more. I may not receive the Consecrated Host but, there is an increase of intimate desire to receive the Lord Jesus on His appointed time, Kairos!

To the one who believe and have the faith, there’s no explanation needed. However to those who “wonders how” I wish I could share my faith.

As we continue to count the quarantine days left and begin to retell the great love of Jesus for us and the Father, let’s us look how quarantine has enhanced our identity and dignity as a person and as a child of God.

Palm Sunday: Reclaimed Identity

As Jesus entered Jerusalem, He knew what would happen to Him. He knew that this will be the beginning of the end of His mission yet, the fulfillment of the purpose of which He came.Despite this knowledge, He face his mission. He did not turn his back knowing what lies ahead. He continued on.

With fear and anxiety, Jesus entered Jerusalem where His cross awaits Him. Yet, this very entrance was a hymn of praise, affirming His true identity, ” in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God”

Look back, over these days of quarantine, how did you experience your true identity?

Over news and social network feeds, I have been reading and watching different kind of stories of how people came out of themselves and helped. Like for example the doctors and nurses, despite the truth and the possibility of transmission and risking their lives, they still serve. They stay and fulfill their mission. They knew that their identity is to protect life, to care for life.

Or, the story of an unnamed man who goes to his elderly neighbors and offered his services to them by making errands for them like buying their medicines so they won’t go out anymore. He, too, knew the danger. But, for him, this is what it means to be a Neighbor.

And many more stories you can add up to our list.

All these, made me ask myself, what can I do? Lord, how can I help?

Linkages. Connections. So I began the challenge of helping through connecting people who need assistance (especially in the hospital) with those I knew who might be able to help and link with others as well.

Just the other day, a prominent company(Goldilock) message me, asking if we are distributing food for Frontliners as they are willing to give food donations. Thanks to social media, I was able to link them to one of our schools who attends to the need of the nearby frontliners and 3 poor communities who have been greatly affected by the quarantine (they have to earn a meager amount to eat, with the quarantine no one is allowed to go out, where will they get food? Of course our government provides meagerly as well)

One more to note, a hospital whom I knew expressed their need for assistance for cash and medical supplies as the influx of patients continues. As to this day, the hospital administrator and a CEO/Founder I knew are now in dialogue on how to address the hospital needs.

Make the most out of this quarantine days, bring out the best in you~ your truest identity.

Stay safe everyone.

You are all in my prayers.

… I can’t load the pictures attached to this article, I have poor signal….

Thanks for reading and for your patience

Via Huawei

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Many Gifts but One Source

Blessed.

Last week, I was invited to give a 3-day Spirituality of Arts class with our 5 Ladies aspiring to join the community of Sisters if St. Paul of Chartres, Philippine Province.

I have been teaching this module class for 3 years. And I have seen, the different gifts and talents God has bestowed on each one of my mentees (call it students, since I’m teaching them 😊🤙) Some, He gives abundantly, as what the Gospel of Matthew would say in the Parable of Talents, 5. For some, 3 and for some others 1. Yet, in all these, one thing is common – You are Accountable for what little or abundant you have.

(left to right: Nadine , Mary Joy, Mia, Eloisa Marie, Vanessa)

I always remind my students, that my class is not an art class or humanities or art appreciation neither fine arts course. Ours, is a Spirituality of Arts class. Everything is an Art. And every art is spiritual.

For what is art? Art comes from Inspiration. And this, Inspiration comes from the Heart. This heart has been moved, been touched through an encounter that inspires one to express in a very creative way his/her thoughts in colors, pens, paints and brushes.

For who has been touching us? Who has been inspiring people to create and be creative, to discover and develop except the One who created us all.

Needless to say, all works points us to Him, the Source of all creation.

As St. John the Baptist would say during the Baptism of Jesus in the River Jordan in the Gospel of St. John, “He must increase, I must decrease”

The aim of the module is to claim once more our identity as Artist. In each one us lies hidden the creator in us waiting to be recognized, waiting yet to be reclaimed. We are all gifted. All we have to do is to look within us and believe that, what you discovered has been there for a long time, yet, unknown because we have been to preoccupied of looking outside.

The journey to be inside out.

There are so much in store for you my dear soon to be Consecrated Ladies to Christ. Be patient. Endure every trials for endurance matures faith. Be joyful always and be grateful at all times. Look within you, and you will discover, that the plan of the Lord as the book of Jeremiah reminds us, “he has a plan for you for good and not for woe”

Metamorphosis: The Art of Moving Forward

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Reblogged: ForGiveNess

Forgiveness

Forgiveness

I was lost.

A rebel,
without
a clue
or a cause.

I was a square peg
in a round hole,
trying to be whole.

I lost myself
trying
to impress
others by fitting in.

Insecurity is a prison,
that hands out life
sentences, as if its
life depended on it.

The fear of rejection
and being alone,
had a much deeper
undertone.

I soon would
come to know,
the small,
still voice of
my Saviour.

Jesus Christ
is my
reason
for being.

Imperfect and flawed,
I stand.
I found grace
and mercy at His Hand.

His forgiveness.

-A.Brown

Copyright © 2019 A. Brown. All rights reserved.

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PCNE Hindsight (THE WALK)

The day 1 of PCNE (Philippine Conference for New Evangelization) has just concluded. And, joy-filled, I’m posting this blog. These are my SPC (Sisters of St. Paul of Chartres) companions. You might be wondering, there’s a blue among the gray! She’s our adopted sister from Vietnam who stays in the Philippines for her Master’s Degree.

I’m on the road now boarding with my Sisters. I’m pretty sure they’re tired as well, yet, filled with joy and affirmed of their dignity as Filipino Youth!

The conference began with a powerful question of Archbishop Chito Cardinal Tagle, “How do Jesus walk?” He explained quoting some of the Gospel Stories where Jesus was “walking with”. One of the beautiful, striking yet, not new, and remained unnoticed, is how Jesus takes time to Eat. Yes! You read it right. Jesus eats. We have read several accounts where Jesus eats not only with tax collectors but even officials of the temple. As Tagle would say, this eating is Jesus way of “walking with” them. This would mean, meeting them where they are at. Seeing them for who they are and for what they are.

Tagle continued to stir the crowd of clergy and religious with a thought provoking presentation on the different walks of the Filipino Youth, he named one in particular, that the Youth of today, he said, are holding their cellphones connected and communicating simultaneously anywhere and everywhere all at the same time.

He end up by asking us participants, “how do you” walk” with the Youth?”

True enough, it made me assess and evaluate my ways of” walking with the youth I am handling and working them. There were various thoughts arose such as youth discipline, awareness, limitations mine’s and their. I felt ashamed because I know for certain that I have failed in some ways (justifying myself as well, too proud to admit my limitations ).

Humbled, I know I needed my Jesus to help me in the ministry He has entrusted to me. Accompanying the Youth is never easy yet at the same time fulfilling knowing that I have helped a young man or woman find its ways either back to God, see his/her direction in life, follow her/his dream, or being able to be present with and an ear to listen to, is just enough to keep me going in my ministry.

I will end this “raw” post. Yes, it is definitely raw as I haven’t proofread or reviewed what I have written. I just grabbed my cp from my bag and scribbled my letters and my happy thoughts unto my notepad, and posted this.

OK, I will end tonight blog with this question that you and I could ponder together before we sleep and even upon rising tomorrow and the day after.

How are you contributing in the formation of the Youth [in your country] ?

Good night everyone. And a holy rest to all.

By the way, in the Philippines we are celebrating our 500 years of Christianity, in 2021. As form of celebration the Church here had a 9-yr plan, each year with different themes, for 2019 it is Year of the Youth, so all activities are geared towards this theme.

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Past is never Past

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I am deeply grateful to my congregation for all the helps and assistance accorded to me in my early formation which opened me to a new understanding and acceptance of the beautiful and worse self – the brokenness of my past and the on-the-process healed present self.

I entered Religious Life when I was nineteen in 2001, had my first profession in 2004 and in 2011 received my perpetual vows. I have been assigned in our education ministry for the past seven years of which I gave my heart for the work which I loved so dearly.  After which, I was assigned to our Home for the Elderly Nuns to help in the finance department and for retreat ministry, after two years I was transferred to a seemingly minority group in our congregation the Pastoral ministry, since 2016 up to now I am the Catechetical Coordinator of the Parish in Culion, Palawan.

I finished Bachelor of Arts in Political Science at St. Paul University Surigao.  I never dreamt of becoming who I am now.  The turn of events came when I was in third year college.  It was quick.  I went out of my English class and made “tambay” in the corridor, gazing at the ground from the third floor, these thoughts came to me, “Ano ang gagawin ko sa buhay ko? Hindi naman pwede habang buhay barkada lang, or party or gala ng gala ako at friends ko. Darating ang araw magkakaroon kami ng kanyang-kanyang buhay.  Ano ang maging akin?” Those thoughts made an impact on me.  This became my compass, which eventually defined what I would decide on.

However, that same year, there was a “Vocation Awareness” in our school I did not join but my friend Jay handed me a brochure with a statement, “If a business walks for a mile to earn a centavo, how much more if you walk for a mile to save one soul.” I was so struck with these words but didn’t understand what it meant.  Later that year, what keeps ringing on me was the feeling on “I want something that lasts, something that does not end nor are not measured by salary or work time.”

That same year, too, my teammate Michelle in Volleyball was already attending a search-in with the Mensa Domini Sisters.  Unknown to her my “inner search” she invited me to join her, and that was the start of being in touch with what I didn’t know then, the “inner search for meaning in life.” 

I broke the news to my parents that I want to enter the convent on the eve of my nineteenth birthday in 2001.  My parents scolded me and were disappointed, but there was a sort of “certainty” of feeling that “Someone called me for this.”

Everyone was NO to the idea.

Instead of a regular four year course, I finished my bachelor’s degree in three years and one summer I was nineteen years of age.  Being a summerian graduate, my father requested if I could take a one semester break before enrolling at San Sebastian.  That means, I had four months (June-Sept) rest prior to my Law proper.  With those free months I applied in my Alma Mater.  I was assigned in the Finance department as voucher clerk and as a part-time substitute teacher.  I find this event of my Father’s request to postpone my enrolment as a salient event in my life, had it not been for the postponement of my enrolment I would not become an SPC.

When I was working, my former school paper editor-in-chief Alfredo Dimaano upon learning that I have been attending search-in in other congregation requested the SPC Sisters to have me join in their second Sunday search-in.  The accompaniment session of the St. Paul sisters with me began.

I was accepted in both congregations.  The Mensa Domini sisters’ entrance was May and for the St. Paul’s August.  I wanted to join the Mensa Domini but since the entrance was through, I was requested to wait for another year.  And that left me only with St. Paul’s entrance on August.  I was proud and self-sufficient then, disobeying my parents, I entered St. Paul in 2001.

Looking back with these events in my life, I can say that I am grateful to all the turnabouts in my life.  Those events helped me in my capacity to discern and see God’s hand at work in my life. I can see God is “paki-alamero” in my plans in life only for my good benefits.  One example that I can identify is that, I am able to become more surrendering to the Lord especially in my ministry and obedience.  There are times when it is difficult for me to accept and understand, yet, whenever I am confronted with my stubbornness, I am always led to realize what God has done before and “look, how great it was!”  Another thing that I am grateful is that no what how the turn of events in my life would be – whether the pains that I experience in the community and with superiors, or in my ministry, I know that God has great plans for me.

On August 2018, I will be celebrating my eighteen years in the convent, and eight years as perpetually professed SPC sister.  Life is not easy.  Life is not fair.  There is politics in the convent.  Life in the convent is never a bed of roses nor an ideal state, yet, I am certain this is where I want to be.  I want to spend my life serving the Lord, loving Him despite my unfaithful heart and stubborn will.  When I was a Postulant in 2002, I was asked to make a symbol.  I made a cut out two hands holding each other (One bigger than the other).  When I was asked to explain, I simply said: “I am telling the Lord to hold my hands tight, as you can see, I have the tendency to let go of this hand.  But, if He does, surely I will stay an SPC until my last breath.”

And, I believed, I had my moment already.  In 2009, I let go of this hand.  I did not apply for my perpetual vows, but He held my hands so tight I can’t let go.  And, up to now, He is holding my hands still tight not giving me any chance to let go.

I still have tons of loads of issues I need to face.  And every day, I beg the Lord to heal me, to make me whole and make me a better person and more accepting and understanding of all my issues whenever  it comes again in another form.

 

 

 

image by Jaime Gonzales

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I’m Online

1

I’m back.

It’s good to be away for awhile from what I have loved to do-writing my thoughts. Having “left” the social networking world has given me a chance to really focus on something that I lack most-CONNECTION and PRESSENCE

Yes!

Well,  I’m no excuse.

Most of the time, because my world has been so fast and vast, i lost contact with persons dear to me. I neglect them in many varied ways, justifying, they’re always there anyway! Or that “they know, I love them much I’m not just that person who always communicates.” And, at time, I’m really busy.

HOwever, the turn of events in my family recently taught me to value something that I lack at this present time of faceless and borderless communication.  Two weeks ago, my uncle and his son had a car collission leaving both in critical condition up to now.  We’re preparing for worst.  I am preparing the worst. Death.

Regret now creeps.  Regret fills all of me. I dont have to give the detail, it tires me to pour. Death is imminent.

Despite this sadness overwhelming me, it taught me a lesson, I swore will never fail me again.

Find time.

Spend time.

Treature time.

 

 

 

 

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FULL PACKAGE

Ms Universe 2017 South Africa, deserves the crown not because she wowed the judges and drop-jaw the audience but because SHE is more than what our eyes can see.

She is not just an ordinary woman, who posesses the beauties of the universe, she  is a woman for, with and in God.

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Why it’s difficult to listen during homilies (take it from me)

I can’t help but write notes for this particular priest, Fr. Weyms, SJ, who did his homework of doing his homily well.

He begun by tickling the conscience of the faithful if they did listen to the lectors and ask this question, “who wrote the second reading for today?

God?!, With a good laugh.

No. Its St. Paul. And he continued on his reflection on Phil. 2:1-11. It’s was a thought-provoking homily. A very inspiring homily on humility and self-abnegation.

But what really struck me most was this, he said, “we are only 3rd.” He continues, “God first, and others, 2nd.” 

Why was so striking?

The verse goes like this, ” let each of you gently consider the others, as more important than yourselves. Do not seek your interest, but, rather, that of others.”

Just what I needed to hear to reawaken my self-righteousness. I often complain to the Lord, “why are they blessed, I am not.” ” Why I don’t have this, others have.” And so on and on. Sometimes, I’m tired asking the Lord all these questions and I get no answers.

So, how did God breaking the ice of #complaint and unending #questioning? 

Well, it’s not God who is the problem (yes, I can hear you comment on that) the problem is that I tend to be self-righteous.  I’m good s/he is not, so I deserve the blessing. I’m charitable and s/he is greedy, so I merit the good tidings. I’m a good church person, s/he is no show in the church, hmm..thus I have a place in heaven. Yes, you definitely got it right. The standard is the source and summit of the issue here. I have my own standard. And have not patterned it according to how it should be.

Your attitude should be the same as Jesus Christ.

It is a big challenge for me, to be conscious of this attitude, knowing that there are times when events and people surrounds me with affirmation that, “hey! I’m great!” Or that “I’m better than her/him.”

I wish to be reminded of this all the time, so that I may not boast of the things I’ve done but only what I unworthily received due to the graciousness of this God who never ceases to be kind, patient and understanding to me.

I live because of his kindness, should I  not be grateful and take every opportunity to return the favor?

Thanks to this priest who did his homework well!

Happy Week Ahead!

Happy feast of St. Therese of Lisiuex